My Pebble in the Pond – Taking time out for me.

Taking time out for me is not usually on my list of jobs to do.  Here we are again at the start of a new year!  Having just surfaced from a dose of imported flu, I am shaking my head with a, ‘Ok, where was I?’ feeling!  Enforced down time has left me with a spacey feeling.  So, the usual urge ‘to get up to speed and get stuff done’ tries to rush in and take over again.  But, I ask myself, is that all I really want?  What if I were to take a little time out for me, consciously – would my world fall apart? Everyone will have their own answer to that question and, in truth, I am still working on mine!  As ever, lots to get done and more I want to do! I decided to take myself out for a gentle walk though.  Bod (my dear body) a little tentative but that was ok, I had enough space to take my time today.  It was lovely listening to the birds;  looking out across the landscape, misty in the cool sunshine, but bright, blue and fresh.  The daffodils pushing up already and some heather in bloom too, even in mid January!  I love Pembrokeshire … I love living by the sea! I’m so pleased I took an hour out today just to enjoy it.  Did I come to any great conclusions?  No – I actually gave my mind a rest!  The walk uphill was focused on appreciation for my body parts working sufficiently to make steady progress up and up, and further up until I reached home again.  Well, it’s not Olympic fit by eons, but it’s my bod and I am grateful for the journey it allowed me to take today. I have not really taken much time to look after myself or really value myself over the years.  I have learned to put a lot of pressure on myself in guise of looking after me by trying to lose weight.  That pressure has been ok for a few weeks, but usually week 8 is the week it all falls down…..again!  Perhaps looking after myself is possible if I take the pressure off, and be kind to myself, and ENJOY a more relaxed approach to looking after my needs on a day to day basis.  Anyway, I am what I am here and now, and that is ok actually… isn’t it? I’ve learnt a lot about what is good for me and what’s not over my life…I have experienced some green smoothies that make me feel ill and others that taste lush!  I am finding new ways of looking at food and drink and my tastes have changed.  But I still binge from time to time – ‘wanting something nice’.  It really is amazing what our bodies tell us if we listen!  I really do need to take the pressure off and do more of what feels nice! I now have a tool to diffuse the emotional patterns that run as subconscious programs that I no longer find useful.   I realise I have CHOICE among my inner resources.  Emotional freedom is a breath of fresh air so I am working on more of that!  So much ongoing  pressure is definitely is not comfortable or good for me.  Especially as I realise it’s me who is doing it to me! So, today I chose to enjoy a lovely walk, just for me, by the sea, and I loved it!  I enjoyed the green smoothie I prefer and I have a lovely inner peaceful feeling to start working on the other things I want to do now….that inner smile feels really good! I hope you find time for you today too!